Tuesday, November 2, 2010


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Saturday, September 18, 2010


Psalm 4:3 know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself, the Lord will hear when I call to him.

My alarm rang at 5:30 on the dot this morning, funny enough I had a peaceful night this is funny because whenever I go for a sleep over well its not my bed so I will wake up at night at same point, toss and turn for a while hen go back to sleep, you all know what I mean when its not your bed, its just Not your bed!!! So I woke up and checked the time to make sure it was really 5:30, i looked over at my friend who was I assumed was still sleeping, so I awoke and grabbed my bible and headed to the next room, I stared convincing myself that I dint really have to jog that morning coz first I was a guest, and I dint have my running shoes and shorts and jacket but apart of me felt guilty and so I went took some shorts I had left the last time I was there and hit the road !! ohh yea I grabbed a leso as well and tied it on my my waist. So I decide am just going to walk for a while to clear my head before my devotion, but as I got to the road I felt the urge to run but kept on wondering what would people think?? Is she mad ?? Imagine me in a pink nightgown a leso around my waist, wearing sleepers jogging around vescon area at 5:30 in the morning???

So yes I took off, my eyes focused forward on the prize that was before me. I ran for a while I caught some ladies looking at me weirdly…well the guys urged me on!!! Funny thing the one thing that came to my mind was with woman who jogged every morning unlike me she is actually in real sense insane so I imagine what people thought, did they think I was crazy?? Insane, had lost it, was running away from some issues, but that woman gave me some comfort of sorts I mean if she could why couldn’t I? Besides am I really normal?? was I born to be normal ?? Where is it written that we all have to do the same things the same way??

When are born, we start to grow, go to kindergarten or nursery school, baby class (what’s the difference anyway ??) we join primary school eight years of hard work then high school 4 beautiful years of freedom !! then college, all this in pursuit of the perfect job, well paying job, satisfying job, great benefits, the we meet that special someone ,we get married and have two three kids and we work some more, take care of the family ,send kids to school to start the whole process all over again !!! Then one day we age, we die we are buried and we are no more…..6months later we don’t mention your name no more coz you’re gone, you have no use for the living….your just but a memory…..

All this while when were alive we prayed alittle,praised a little, worshipped a little, gave a little, went to a nice church, had nice friends, nice sermons being preached every Sunday, nice clean well kept bibles, and we convinced ourselves that we lived a full life !! All this while God is trying to get your attention, all this while He is saying shiko I have different plans for you!!! Listen to me!! We go through some difficult moments yet we forget the lessons, fail to see God wanting to get our attention, But no we are too busy making life happen….i mean is this all ?? Because if it is, I have no difference from the guy who is sitting next to me right now…no difference at all. Do I want to be like every person I meet in the streets?? because if God wanted us all to be the same thing, then we would all look the same, we would go to the same schools, same colleges, get married to the same man, have the same gifts and talents SAME ! SAME! SAME!! The why did he take the take time to make all of us different??

When are we ever going o take time from our busy schedules of life to actually ask God why he created us?? Lord why did you create me?? What is my purpose for my life?? What is this that you had in mind for me that you made me?? What I missing Lord, where am I going wrong?? Why am I working so hard to achieve? Why am I here?? We are hundred and thousands of Christians in this country yet we still have people who do not have or know who Christ is?? who do not have food to eat, who do not have a place to stay, who do not have hope for life, who are ailing in hospitals, who are dying, who are demon posses, who are drunk day in day out, who smoke their lungs to their graves, who leave women and children behind, who are still bound by the adultery …… so many yet we in silent still pray a little, praise a little, worship a little, gave a little, went to a nice church, had nice friends, nice sermons every Sunday, nice clean well kept bibles, and we convinced ourselves that we lived a full life….how are we alive ?? Some one please tell me how are we ALIVE?? How when we have healers amongst us, I intercessors, demon chasers, preachers, interpreters of tongues, teachers,. The devil has take hold of us and made us so afraid that we dare move! For some of us we dare not even dream!! We have so much potential so much energy so much power yet we don’t realize it!! we are so bound by fear of failure, rejection, being mis- understood, mockery, and even our capabilities….people its time we break loose and do what is being commanded of us, its time we sit down with God and ask him Lord show me what to do, show me where am supposed to be at, show me my responsibility for my generation.

The disciples of Jesus were called Christians because they followed Christ…they forsook everything and followed Christ! The had a relationship with Christ…..to the Jesus Christ was their first P.R.I.O.R.I.T.Y. Christianity to them was not a religion but a relationship!! The spent time reading the word and praying asking God to reveal the mysteries of his word so that they could preach the good news to however they came across to….people we are not ORDINARY! We are not NORMAL!! When you accept Christ in yur life are SET APART for God to be used by him to complete what we had set you to do .can u imagine getting to heaven and God telling me ohh well you lived alright but dint do anything I had planned you to do so please step aside.

Do you know why you are alive?? Why you were created?? If you don’t the ask Him, yes literally ask God, sit and ask!! Let preachers preach to you but read the word for yourself as well!! Get to know what, where, how God wants you to go about your purpose by reading the word of God. I will give you the same challenge I got this a Sunday back, take 10minutes everyday away from all the noise and sit still…ask God to speak to you, and be quite to listen and do all that he asks of you

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Dont waste the preety

He that walketh with wise men shall be wise: but a companion of fools shall be destroyed. -Proverbs 13:20

Do you know I just realize you are on of the most discouraging people I’ve ever met!!! And funny enough you package it so well with concern and examples that if someone dint know better they would actually believe you!! Hell I’ve believed you way too many times. Just think about it?? Every time I’ve ever suggested anything about growing, starting or buying and moving you have always had something negative to say about it! But thank God I have people in my life now, who believe in me and a God keeps on reminding me everyday that there is nothing unachievable!! In this world….just thought you should know.

The day of reckoning was that afternoon, I mean she still couldn’t figure out why she dint go for lunch, why her day was so slow and how tired she felt! Sick and tired was more like it….so as she sent that text she felt anger and resentment ad bitterness towards this person who was once a close friend, she yelled and snapped at everyone in the office that day…. how did they get here she wondered?? we were always happy, had so much in common, sharing our love of fast food, good movies, the outdoors, finishing each others sentences ,stealing glances and sharing private jokes….so how did it come up to this ??

Oh this is where it started, when she told him that she wanted to start a business! So she let him on her plans and he said he would throw in a good word with the money people only to realize later that he took her plan and run with it! Or is it when she told him that she had met someone??? he doesn’t care about you like I do, he said. Cant treat and pamper you like he would she believe, what about the time she got that great offer in the new company ??? ohh great package but will you hack it ??? And the weather there ? I don’t think you going to like it….

.ohh don’t get her wrong this dude was a smooth brother he just dint come up with abjections?? He came with facts!! And the fact was that they were so close to some point gave him the upper hand on some inside info, inside enough to rock her world for ten minutes..that’s all it lasted before the shame and guilt spread, so he knew things like like what mad her sad ?? What she cared for ?? What made her mad?? How to make her smile? What moves her? What touches her heart? What does she feel about what? Where and how will she react?? What are her strengths? ohh don’t forget the important things like weakness, failures and dreams….yeeep he had her figured out like a tune peanut butter sandwich!!! Just spread and yummy!!

Four months after walking out of their friendship she felt lost! I mean how could she have depended on a man that way?? How? To everybody she was HER, miss independent, miss know it and fix it all, hell she could tell what wrong with you even before u could utter a word!!! What had happened to her?? When her best friend met him she asked so what do you think??

She said: there was an ex-factor about him…..

She responded ex wat??

She wondered?? he is the sweetest man I know!

She convinced herself-she just doesn’t know him well….

So here she was trying to find out why they feel out, she thought after the spontaneous holidays, dinners, lunches, ice cream dates, movies and other benefits were gone they still would salvage something….anything…..then it kicked reality finally kicked in !!! the lying son of a gun !!

She looked past her year and all the dreams she had, all the hopes, all frozen. All stuck , all breathless gasping for air, all the voices in her head laughing at her , screaming at her, condemning her calling her all sorts of names……remembering all the times she tried to take a step but was held back listening to the voices in her head……does she have cause to blame him ???

Some people would say NO!

She has a mind of her own,

She aint stupid!

Hey she should carry her own cross!!

The guy from the back would yell…get a life!!

Another would cry out you suck!!!

But the still, inner voice would remind her that He knows her by name that her name is written on the palms of her hand, she He will never forsake her
That is a very serious warning. Foolish friends can literally destroy your life. Consider this the next time you’re out with a group of people, and you’re considering who to talk with, and who to avoid and how deep in your hear and life these people go. take stock of your friends and see who is dragging you down hey while yur at it, check who you are dragging down...mhhh like ester always says.....dont waste the preety....

Proverbs 4:23
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

The things that i want in a man and what i wish men knew !!!

i was asked to do this article( http://yakuti.org/2010/07/whatiwishmenknew/) after Dan's article(http://yakuti.org/2010/05/the-things-i-like-in-a-woman-and-what-i-wish-women-knew/)

i must say came at the right time for me since it’s only the other day that I was actually thinking and trying to put down on paper on what I really want in a man and some things that I wished men knew about women. Honestly, I don’t think we are as complicated as men make us out to be. It may be true most of the times we are not sure of what we want but when we finally figure it out, it’s too late and we are already in a relationship that’s heading neither here nor there….

So here goes. These are my personal thoughts, most-probably shared by sisters around the world.

I love a man who knows God. Not one who knows about God. Yes, there is a difference: A man who knows God is one who can believe with you that rent is going to be paid at the end of the month even when he has no hope of a job and nowhere to borrow money. He has a relationship with God and believes and has seen God come through for him even in the most difficult and hopeless of times… he believes that prayer works. There is humility in this man since he recognizes One who is greater than him, therefore he treats his family and all human beings with respect and dignity.

I love a man who is honest, not only with the little things but with the huge stuff as well. What I don’t know will come to hurt me someday, so you thinking “I can keep this from her since she might get hurt” is not a good move. If you love me and are planning to spend the rest of your life with me, you owe it to me to be honest about your past or anything else you think I should not know. Believe me I won’t understand and celebrate with you for hiding children you had out of wedlock, or debts that you accumulated over the years when we are already married. Women take betrayal seriously. We may forgive but we will always remember, and earning our trust again will take a lot of time.

I love a man who can listen. I, like many women, love to talk!!! If you are keen enough, I say a lot of important stuff when am talking or narrating a movie I saw, so just don’t dismiss me thinking I am just mumbling. We tend not to be direct sometimes – hey, we like you and don’t want to hurt your feelings but instead of not saying anything, we will say it with gifts or gestures, eg if you have worn this shirt for too long, I will go out and buy you a shirt as a gift! I will buy you a cologne if the one you’re using always chokes me when I hug you, smelling nice is very important, please get the hint! But when push comes to shove we will lay it on the table and we expect you to consider our views and input.

We already have a bunch of insecure women in the world; why do you have your arm around me and your eyes on some other woman? It’s funny – when am committed I have my eyes on you only!

A man who can make me laugh and play with me – snakes and ladders, or teaching me monopoly, stealing jokes from Google and paraphrasing them to his own liking… I’m game!! I want to see you loosen up; you’re my friend first so having fun shouldn’t be such a doting task.

The things I wish men knew.

When you break up with someone please take time and get over it. Jumping to another relationship is a bomb waiting to explode. When you do move on, give the new girl a chance, She is nothing like your ex, so stop with the comparing and contrasting.

Stop with the gestures!! “I LOVE YOU!” Those words mean a lot more to me than a shopping spree in Paris or a holiday in the Bahamas (Fungua roho yako, ONGEA!).

added : that not all men are like you, some have scarred me, let me learn to trust you first.

I know it might sound like a double standard, but honestly the gestures women give are more obvious and being a woman myself, every gesture i give has a meaning behind it. A man will pass near a market and buy you a handbag just because he saw a nice handbag, while a woman will buy a man a certain kind of shirt to say, “Man, I think you need to try something different,” or “This shirt will look great on him!”

With men, it’s just all mixed up! A man might ask you out and have you thinking, “Wow, he likes me, or he wants to know me,” only for you to find out .that he was plotless or he just didn’t want to go to the movies alone, or his friend stood him up so he decided to call you!

Not all women are after your money! Relax!! And me offering to pay for dinner or lunch doesn’t make you less of a man, or it doesn’t mean I’m trying to show you that I’m independent. I just want to treat my man as well.

I’m tired of my brothers using the visual creature excuse on us, a thousand centauries later. Please. You are the man, you’re in control, zip it!! And on the same note, stop ogling at me as if am a piece of meat you want to eat!

When I tell you that I need to think about it, whether it’s a date or asking to go exclusive, please give me the time and space to do so. I just don’t want to make you another statistic.

If you like me, or don’t like me, spare me the mixed signals and coded messages …because if I already like you I will interpret it to my benefit…so do the right thing, COMMUNICATE!!!

Again, we don’t like being rejected but the earlier you tell us where this “friendship” is headed, the less painful it is. So stop stringing us along, we don’t want to be knitted if we won’t be worn.

Before I met you, I had and still have friends who are guys, don’t expect me to stop taking their calls or meeting them because they were always there for me. I placed boundaries with my male friends so I don’t expect your female friends to be all over you either.

Of my love and hate for Nairobi

Nairobi, some call it the sin city, the city which never sleeps or like i still call it, the city of many lights. In this city i have fallen in love and fallen out of love.

ask any of my close friends and they will tell you i hate nairobi coz of its weather, i mean you have to admit its ridiculous cold, it rains without notice and the thieves dont make it easier enough to sit or walk without holding to your purse for dear life !!! ohh dont get me started on the chokoras !!! been attacked once, if it wasnt for a guy i had met earlier that day recognizing me and shooing the boys off i would have been smelling like an open sewer all the way home !!

Love can make you do crazy thinngs like travelling on a friday night, fikaing the city sato morning, hooking up with friends on sato afte, church sunday morning and spending time with a boyfriend sunday afternoon and geting back on the bus the same day at 9:00pm and still make it to the office 8:00am monday morning…..can u blame me ? nairobi has great looking guys..there is something about a guy who looks good and smells great !! used to tell a friend that every time i came to nairobi i would get confused !! nyanganyikiwa kabiasa !!! i mean even the touts have it going on !!!

Long distance relationship are the most sensitive most hardest relationships to keep going, constant communication and misintepretation of messages and phone talks are the order of the day !! i should know, two of the most significnt(at the time) relationships ive been in were long distance, from mombasa and botswana, and nairobi. if a couple does not have clear communication lines, thats a sure recipe for disaster, trust is the key to everything here…
my escapades

We met at a camp some years ago and i though he was the most handsome man alive !! 3 years later he told me he loved me and hey i was already smitten so we gave it a go with the long distance thing….several friday and sunday night trips later it proved difficult and we both went our separate ways….we still peoples and talk once in a very long while…

You see kids it was a one of those boring afternoons that i was going through your aunt chrsitine’s wall ad there he was, tall, light and handsome, believe it or not kids the moment i saw him i knew i would spend the rest of my life with him, or so i thought, so as we got to know each other over the rest of the year alot happened, he got his heart broken with a girl he had been seeing and like a good friend i was there to…you know what girls do !!

I dint know i had fallen in love until a year later when we started dating and i made my first trip to nairobi, yep i was finally going to meet the love of my life and sure enough i wasnt dissapointed, the rest of that week was like a honeymoon for the two us and life had never seem so beautiful, not once in my mind did i even think he might be an onyacha (the serial killer) or just another nairobian con-artist !! i was in love !!! We dint end up living happlly ever after….

How about grabbing your girlfriend and heading to nairobi on friday night only to reveal to her that the guys who was taking us up the mountain ….well i had never met him !!!!, you should have seen my girlfriends horrified face !!! but as it turned out that guy rocked !!! and he mad me see a better side of nairobi....

I know there are many things that we have done as far as relationships are concerned that we have vowed to NEVER EVER go back to, in this case mine was never ever date someone from nairobi i prayed and told God long distance NEVER Ever !!! for some its to never ever date kikuyu’s or taita’s, some is to never ever love again, and others to never ever forgive the ones that have hurt us,or other because of pride have vowed to never ever repair that broken marriage…..

My heart has been expectant and happy when i get on that bus on frday nite but it doesnt necessary mean that it wasnt bleeding when i left on sunday nite…. love is many things 1 cor 13:4-13 and no matter how many times ive had my heart broken or how scarred it maybe i choose to love…..so am not saying Never, Ever coz not all men are the same,girls dont believe that lie, and i cant wait to get on the bus this friday nite !!!!

1 Corinthians 13:4-13: ‘Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.’

Wanjiku Ndungu

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

We were called for much greater things than these....

Hi guys,

i know havent blogged for some weeks but all has ben well, i thank God for his grace and mercy more so for his forgiveness in my life, we serve a God who is full of surprises, ive been meaning to blog about various issues but he keeps reminding me that this is just not an ordinary blog, That its not about me, that everthing i do and go through are for his glory so its not in my place to just came and jot down stuff that will not impact someones life..heey i can do that in my diary on my own time.

whenever i sit to journal here its for his glory !! so ask yourself what you have taken for granted ?? what are you doing with the abilities and talents that God has placed in your hands ?? are you sitting on them and watch them wither or are you cultivating them, are you like jeremiah saying but Lord i cant speak am only a child ??

jeremiah 1 :10

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

6 "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child."

7 But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD.

9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."

what am i saying ?? God is ready to use us for his glory ! dont ever think your not talented enough or disabled or not bright enough, look at king solomon the wisest of all men, the only way he got to be wise was by asking for wisdom !! the bible says ask and it shall be given,seek and ye shall find, knock and the door will be open to you.

i know your thinking...its not that easy !! i dint say it was, neither did the Lord,BUT he said ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH MIM. and if i know God well HE IS NOT A MAN THAT HE SHOULD LIE. there have been a few things that i have shyied away from doing thinking nah i aint that educated, or qualified or worth it, but spending time in God's word is teaching me different, am qualified, am the one God has appointed to use such a time as this !! and you know what am going to do it to the best of my ability, am no longer going to sit down and let situations and people and circumastances dectate what path my life is going to move, NO SIR !!! ama let GOD DO HIS thing in and through me. its our generation. the little things that you do that seem ordinary are extra-ordinary in someone else's life so go ahead and take steps of faith.

joshua 1:2-9
Moses my servant is dead. Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them—to the Israelites. 3 I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. 4 Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Great Sea [a] on the west. 5 No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.
6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

So am going to write, watch out for my name in the standard,nation,hey might sign you an autograph for my book preety soon !!


Wanjiku Ndungu

Thursday, June 3, 2010

alone doesnt mean lonely

So today i was at the dentist, yes finally having my two crowns placed !! yeey what a relief after several visit for root canal,sweet and sour yet more of funny tastes in my mouth i can finally breath knowing i dont have to open wide for the next two weeks.....the machinery used there is nothing to write home abut coz it would scare the living day lights out of you, but the soft gospel music playing from the cd would sooth me in the chair till my appointment is done....mmhh funny most of the time ive been there PRAISE YOU THROUGH THE STORM -casting crowns is whats been playing..i love this song by the way, but not today i cant recall what song had been playing coz i was too busy listening to God's voice.

You see i woke up at 8am today from a very interesting dream, in this dream i was spending a quite,romantic even with my boyfriend..it had gotten to the point where we were just looking into each others eyes, wishing tme would stand still and this moment would never pass...and as if my neighbour had heard our thoughts, i was jolted out of my dream by a song done by kerri hilson, yep you guessed it KNOCK YOU DOWN !!!.

Went outside the house to catch the morning sun, you see this song brought with it memories,and as i stood there, there were millions of things going though my mind...none i can remember funny enough. so i went back to the house and just lay in bed,stood and walked around...and tears started welling on my eyes and i just wanted to cry, they say crying is a good thing it lets out the pain and the anger and it heals !! well ive had enough shares of tears believe you me but today instead of actually sobbing away, i talked to God and all i could manage to say was "God am lonely".

Many times when i feel like this i say a short prayer and move on or call a friend and fix a date ! or just take a movie and let the akwardness within me pass..but today i stood there and waited for God to answer, i stood there demanding a right to an answer, as i stood still and quite i longed to be held tight and be affirmed that i was not alone...and the words came out so clearly like they did all those years ago...I love you, God loves you and alone doesnt mean your lonely.

I remembered this teaching i read from joyce meyer,

Know that God is with you all the time. In the Bible God reminds us that He is always with us and He'll never forsake us (see Hebrews 13:5). Loneliness often leads us to ask ourselves all sorts of questions that can't be answered, such as: What if I am alone for the rest of my life? What if this pain I am feeling never goes away? What if a problem arises that I don't know how to handle on my own? What if...what if...what if...? The questions could go on and on endlessly. Chances are, you'll never be able to answer the "what ifs" in life. But as long as you know that the Lord is with you, you can be assured that He has all the answers you need.

So as the dentist was removing the temporary teeth to place the new crowns, i remembered my temporary moment of loneliness and how in a matter of minutes it was replaced with love and joy,it reminded of how how many people who still have not known how much God loves them, how much he longed for a relationship with them. it reminded me of my primary purpose in this world. To tell everyone that God loved them. friend GOD LOVES YOU !!!It doesnt mean this times of aloneness will not come but how we will handle them and not let them dictate what happens to our day,or month or year, or how we will relate and live..thats whats important.

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path
psalms 119:105

Wanjiku Ndungu