tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36882041249418044392024-02-20T05:29:43.645-08:00In him i live, move, and have my beingFor all the ladies in my generation who are searching for love,security,happiness which can only be found in God....pages of my diary as i walk with the love of my life !!Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-21856724893466459222010-11-02T22:20:00.001-07:002010-11-02T22:20:04.301-07:00http://lifeforhim.wordpress.comhi guys check my blog out !! this is where ive been writting of late.<br />
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ciikuWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-965286135697396212010-09-18T00:00:00.001-07:002010-09-18T00:08:23.537-07:00SET ME APART !Psalm 4:3 know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself, the Lord will hear when I call to him.<br />
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My alarm rang at 5:30 on the dot this morning, funny enough I had a peaceful night this is funny because whenever I go for a sleep over well its not my bed so I will wake up at night at same point, toss and turn for a while hen go back to sleep, you all know what I mean when its not your bed, its just Not your bed!!! So I woke up and checked the time to make sure it was really 5:30, i looked over at my friend who was I assumed was still sleeping, so I awoke and grabbed my bible and headed to the next room, I stared convincing myself that I dint really have to jog that morning coz first I was a guest, and I dint have my running shoes and shorts and jacket but apart of me felt guilty and so I went took some shorts I had left the last time I was there and hit the road !! ohh yea I grabbed a leso as well and tied it on my my waist. So I decide am just going to walk for a while to clear my head before my devotion, but as I got to the road I felt the urge to run but kept on wondering what would people think?? Is she mad ?? Imagine me in a pink nightgown a leso around my waist, wearing sleepers jogging around vescon area at 5:30 in the morning???<br />
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So yes I took off, my eyes focused forward on the prize that was before me. I ran for a while I caught some ladies looking at me weirdly…well the guys urged me on!!! Funny thing the one thing that came to my mind was with woman who jogged every morning unlike me she is actually in real sense insane so I imagine what people thought, did they think I was crazy?? Insane, had lost it, was running away from some issues, but that woman gave me some comfort of sorts I mean if she could why couldn’t I? Besides am I really normal?? was I born to be normal ?? Where is it written that we all have to do the same things the same way?? <br />
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When are born, we start to grow, go to kindergarten or nursery school, baby class (what’s the difference anyway ??) we join primary school eight years of hard work then high school 4 beautiful years of freedom !! then college, all this in pursuit of the perfect job, well paying job, satisfying job, great benefits, the we meet that special someone ,we get married and have two three kids and we work some more, take care of the family ,send kids to school to start the whole process all over again !!! Then one day we age, we die we are buried and we are no more…..6months later we don’t mention your name no more coz you’re gone, you have no use for the living….your just but a memory…..<br />
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All this while when were alive we prayed alittle,praised a little, worshipped a little, gave a little, went to a nice church, had nice friends, nice sermons being preached every Sunday, nice clean well kept bibles, and we convinced ourselves that we lived a full life !! All this while God is trying to get your attention, all this while He is saying shiko I have different plans for you!!! Listen to me!! We go through some difficult moments yet we forget the lessons, fail to see God wanting to get our attention, But no we are too busy making life happen….i mean is this all ?? Because if it is, I have no difference from the guy who is sitting next to me right now…no difference at all. Do I want to be like every person I meet in the streets?? because if God wanted us all to be the same thing, then we would all look the same, we would go to the same schools, same colleges, get married to the same man, have the same gifts and talents SAME ! SAME! SAME!! The why did he take the take time to make all of us different??<br />
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When are we ever going o take time from our busy schedules of life to actually ask God why he created us?? Lord why did you create me?? What is my purpose for my life?? What is this that you had in mind for me that you made me?? What I missing Lord, where am I going wrong?? Why am I working so hard to achieve? Why am I here?? We are hundred and thousands of Christians in this country yet we still have people who do not have or know who Christ is?? who do not have food to eat, who do not have a place to stay, who do not have hope for life, who are ailing in hospitals, who are dying, who are demon posses, who are drunk day in day out, who smoke their lungs to their graves, who leave women and children behind, who are still bound by the adultery …… so many yet we in silent still pray a little, praise a little, worship a little, gave a little, went to a nice church, had nice friends, nice sermons every Sunday, nice clean well kept bibles, and we convinced ourselves that we lived a full life….how are we alive ?? Some one please tell me how are we ALIVE?? How when we have healers amongst us, I intercessors, demon chasers, preachers, interpreters of tongues, teachers,. The devil has take hold of us and made us so afraid that we dare move! For some of us we dare not even dream!! We have so much potential so much energy so much power yet we don’t realize it!! we are so bound by fear of failure, rejection, being mis- understood, mockery, and even our capabilities….people its time we break loose and do what is being commanded of us, its time we sit down with God and ask him Lord show me what to do, show me where am supposed to be at, show me my responsibility for my generation.<br />
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The disciples of Jesus were called Christians because they followed Christ…they forsook everything and followed Christ! The had a relationship with Christ…..to the Jesus Christ was their first P.R.I.O.R.I.T.Y. Christianity to them was not a religion but a relationship!! The spent time reading the word and praying asking God to reveal the mysteries of his word so that they could preach the good news to however they came across to….people we are not ORDINARY! We are not NORMAL!! When you accept Christ in yur life are SET APART for God to be used by him to complete what we had set you to do .can u imagine getting to heaven and God telling me ohh well you lived alright but dint do anything I had planned you to do so please step aside. <br />
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Do you know I just realize you are on of the most discouraging people I’ve ever met!!! And funny enough you package it so well with concern and examples that if someone dint know better they would actually believe you!! Hell I’ve believed you way too many times. Just think about it?? Every time I’ve ever suggested anything about growing, starting or buying and moving you have always had something negative to say about it! But thank God I have people in my life now, who believe in me and a God keeps on reminding me everyday that there is nothing unachievable!! In this world….just thought you should know.<br />
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The day of reckoning was that afternoon, I mean she still couldn’t figure out why she dint go for lunch, why her day was so slow and how tired she felt! Sick and tired was more like it….so as she sent that text she felt anger and resentment ad bitterness towards this person who was once a close friend, she yelled and snapped at everyone in the office that day…. how did they get here she wondered?? we were always happy, had so much in common, sharing our love of fast food, good movies, the outdoors, finishing each others sentences ,stealing glances and sharing private jokes….so how did it come up to this ?? <br />
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Oh this is where it started, when she told him that she wanted to start a business! So she let him on her plans and he said he would throw in a good word with the money people only to realize later that he took her plan and run with it! Or is it when she told him that she had met someone??? he doesn’t care about you like I do, he said. Cant treat and pamper you like he would she believe, what about the time she got that great offer in the new company ??? ohh great package but will you hack it ??? And the weather there ? I don’t think you going to like it….<br />
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Four months after walking out of their friendship she felt lost! I mean how could she have depended on a man that way?? How? To everybody she was HER, miss independent, miss know it and fix it all, hell she could tell what wrong with you even before u could utter a word!!! What had happened to her?? When her best friend met him she asked so what do you think?? <br />
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So here she was trying to find out why they feel out, she thought after the spontaneous holidays, dinners, lunches, ice cream dates, movies and other benefits were gone they still would salvage something….anything…..then it kicked reality finally kicked in !!! the lying son of a gun !!<br />
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She looked past her year and all the dreams she had, all the hopes, all frozen. All stuck , all breathless gasping for air, all the voices in her head laughing at her , screaming at her, condemning her calling her all sorts of names……remembering all the times she tried to take a step but was held back listening to the voices in her head……does she have cause to blame him ???<br />
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That is a very serious warning. Foolish friends can literally destroy your life. Consider this the next time you’re out with a group of people, and you’re considering who to talk with, and who to avoid and how deep in your hear and life these people go. take stock of your friends and see who is dragging you down hey while yur at it, check who you are dragging down...mhhh like ester always says.....<span style="color: red;"><strong><em>dont waste the preety....</em></strong></span><br />
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<strong>Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.</strong>Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-3673396471380083782010-07-24T02:51:00.000-07:002010-07-24T02:51:50.192-07:00The things that i want in a man and what i wish men knew !!!i was asked to do this article( http://yakuti.org/2010/07/whatiwishmenknew/) after Dan's article(http://yakuti.org/2010/05/the-things-i-like-in-a-woman-and-what-i-wish-women-knew/)<br />
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i must say came at the right time for me since it’s only the other day that I was actually thinking and trying to put down on paper on what I really want in a man and some things that I wished men knew about women. Honestly, I don’t think we are as complicated as men make us out to be. It may be true most of the times we are not sure of what we want but when we finally figure it out, it’s too late and we are already in a relationship that’s heading neither here nor there….<br />
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So here goes. These are my personal thoughts, most-probably shared by sisters around the world.<br />
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I love a man who knows God. Not one who knows about God. Yes, there is a difference: A man who knows God is one who can believe with you that rent is going to be paid at the end of the month even when he has no hope of a job and nowhere to borrow money. He has a relationship with God and believes and has seen God come through for him even in the most difficult and hopeless of times… he believes that prayer works. There is humility in this man since he recognizes One who is greater than him, therefore he treats his family and all human beings with respect and dignity.<br />
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I love a man who is honest, not only with the little things but with the huge stuff as well. What I don’t know will come to hurt me someday, so you thinking “I can keep this from her since she might get hurt” is not a good move. If you love me and are planning to spend the rest of your life with me, you owe it to me to be honest about your past or anything else you think I should not know. Believe me I won’t understand and celebrate with you for hiding children you had out of wedlock, or debts that you accumulated over the years when we are already married. Women take betrayal seriously. We may forgive but we will always remember, and earning our trust again will take a lot of time.<br />
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I love a man who can listen. I, like many women, love to talk!!! If you are keen enough, I say a lot of important stuff when am talking or narrating a movie I saw, so just don’t dismiss me thinking I am just mumbling. We tend not to be direct sometimes – hey, we like you and don’t want to hurt your feelings but instead of not saying anything, we will say it with gifts or gestures, eg if you have worn this shirt for too long, I will go out and buy you a shirt as a gift! I will buy you a cologne if the one you’re using always chokes me when I hug you, smelling nice is very important, please get the hint! But when push comes to shove we will lay it on the table and we expect you to consider our views and input.<br />
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We already have a bunch of insecure women in the world; why do you have your arm around me and your eyes on some other woman? It’s funny – when am committed I have my eyes on you only!<br />
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A man who can make me laugh and play with me – snakes and ladders, or teaching me monopoly, stealing jokes from Google and paraphrasing them to his own liking… I’m game!! I want to see you loosen up; you’re my friend first so having fun shouldn’t be such a doting task.<br />
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When you break up with someone please take time and get over it. Jumping to another relationship is a bomb waiting to explode. When you do move on, give the new girl a chance, She is nothing like your ex, so stop with the comparing and contrasting.<br />
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I know it might sound like a double standard, but honestly the gestures women give are more obvious and being a woman myself, every gesture i give has a meaning behind it. A man will pass near a market and buy you a handbag just because he saw a nice handbag, while a woman will buy a man a certain kind of shirt to say, “Man, I think you need to try something different,” or “This shirt will look great on him!”<br />
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With men, it’s just all mixed up! A man might ask you out and have you thinking, “Wow, he likes me, or he wants to know me,” only for you to find out .that he was plotless or he just didn’t want to go to the movies alone, or his friend stood him up so he decided to call you!<br />
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Not all women are after your money! Relax!! And me offering to pay for dinner or lunch doesn’t make you less of a man, or it doesn’t mean I’m trying to show you that I’m independent. I just want to treat my man as well.<br />
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I’m tired of my brothers using the visual creature excuse on us, a thousand centauries later. Please. You are the man, you’re in control, zip it!! And on the same note, stop ogling at me as if am a piece of meat you want to eat!<br />
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When I tell you that I need to think about it, whether it’s a date or asking to go exclusive, please give me the time and space to do so. I just don’t want to make you another statistic.<br />
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If you like me, or don’t like me, spare me the mixed signals and coded messages …because if I already like you I will interpret it to my benefit…so do the right thing, COMMUNICATE!!!<br />
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Again, we don’t like being rejected but the earlier you tell us where this “friendship” is headed, the less painful it is. So stop stringing us along, we don’t want to be knitted if we won’t be worn.<br />
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Before I met you, I had and still have friends who are guys, don’t expect me to stop taking their calls or meeting them because they were always there for me. I placed boundaries with my male friends so I don’t expect your female friends to be all over you either.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-83624710821449674992010-07-24T02:46:00.000-07:002010-07-24T02:46:33.308-07:00Of my love and hate for Nairobi<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilajAH26A8Pn4mjbeqoblmYIDaiH7iGZK6zUY9hFNGYdKs3iAzkOeOqPCwXZkH__M_n_DI0JPwKGBZJO4KZdQOYrP2GJkA5RxpUFufaYlHgQhR8DXzZsRk1qRfExYU3mNwnP97OXnBRN-L/s1600/ridingbus1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="436" hw="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilajAH26A8Pn4mjbeqoblmYIDaiH7iGZK6zUY9hFNGYdKs3iAzkOeOqPCwXZkH__M_n_DI0JPwKGBZJO4KZdQOYrP2GJkA5RxpUFufaYlHgQhR8DXzZsRk1qRfExYU3mNwnP97OXnBRN-L/s640/ridingbus1.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br />
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Nairobi, some call it the sin city, the city which never sleeps or like i still call it, the city of many lights. In this city i have fallen in love and fallen out of love.<br />
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Love can make you do crazy thinngs like travelling on a friday night, fikaing the city sato morning, hooking up with friends on sato afte, church sunday morning and spending time with a boyfriend sunday afternoon and geting back on the bus the same day at 9:00pm and still make it to the office 8:00am monday morning…..can u blame me ? nairobi has great looking guys..there is something about a guy who looks good and smells great !! used to tell a friend that every time i came to nairobi i would get confused !! nyanganyikiwa kabiasa !!! i mean even the touts have it going on !!!<br />
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Long distance relationship are the most sensitive most hardest relationships to keep going, constant communication and misintepretation of messages and phone talks are the order of the day !! i should know, two of the most significnt(at the time) relationships ive been in were long distance, from mombasa and botswana, and nairobi. if a couple does not have clear communication lines, thats a sure recipe for disaster, trust is the key to everything here…<br />
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You see kids it was a one of those boring afternoons that i was going through your aunt chrsitine’s wall ad there he was, tall, light and handsome, believe it or not kids the moment i saw him i knew i would spend the rest of my life with him, or so i thought, so as we got to know each other over the rest of the year alot happened, he got his heart broken with a girl he had been seeing and like a good friend i was there to…you know what girls do !!<br />
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I dint know i had fallen in love until a year later when we started dating and i made my first trip to nairobi, yep i was finally going to meet the love of my life and sure enough i wasnt dissapointed, the rest of that week was like a honeymoon for the two us and life had never seem so beautiful, not once in my mind did i even think he might be an onyacha (the serial killer) or just another nairobian con-artist !! i was in love !!! We dint end up living happlly ever after….<br />
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How about grabbing your girlfriend and heading to nairobi on friday night only to reveal to her that the guys who was taking us up the mountain ….well i had never met him !!!!, you should have seen my girlfriends horrified face !!! but as it turned out that guy rocked !!! and he mad me see a better side of nairobi....<br />
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I know there are many things that we have done as far as relationships are concerned that we have vowed to NEVER EVER go back to, in this case mine was never ever date someone from nairobi i prayed and told God long distance NEVER Ever !!! for some its to never ever date kikuyu’s or taita’s, some is to never ever love again, and others to never ever forgive the ones that have hurt us,or other because of pride have vowed to never ever repair that broken marriage…..<br />
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My heart has been expectant and happy when i get on that bus on frday nite but it doesnt necessary mean that it wasnt bleeding when i left on sunday nite…. love is many things 1 cor 13:4-13 and no matter how many times ive had my heart broken or how scarred it maybe i choose to love…..so am not saying Never, Ever coz not all men are the same,girls dont believe that lie, and i cant wait to get on the bus this friday nite !!!!<br />
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<strong>1 Corinthians 13:4-13: ‘Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.’ </strong><br />
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<strong>Wanjiku Ndungu</strong>Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-75576054792036984432010-06-15T01:54:00.000-07:002010-06-17T04:53:25.323-07:00We were called for much greater things than these....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEimQJMkcHG7mMNOTKjome0P1eVK9DdY0jEvuN86bnN1MoI9jHDkS7DQGJWq1AHO5kZCay_NN2y4nsgd3mAGdgYwy7aJ81tzgvIf5Bl0hS17vU6gKdmvXmvw-M_cMhpvXr5EaBKbejte-wm7/s1600/Tshiko.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" qu="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEimQJMkcHG7mMNOTKjome0P1eVK9DdY0jEvuN86bnN1MoI9jHDkS7DQGJWq1AHO5kZCay_NN2y4nsgd3mAGdgYwy7aJ81tzgvIf5Bl0hS17vU6gKdmvXmvw-M_cMhpvXr5EaBKbejte-wm7/s320/Tshiko.jpg" /></a></div>Hi guys,<br />
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<blockquote></blockquote>i know havent blogged for some weeks but all has ben well, i thank God for his grace and mercy more so for his forgiveness in my life, we serve a God who is full of surprises, ive been meaning to blog about various issues but he keeps reminding me that this is just not an ordinary blog, That its not about me, that everthing i do and go through are for his glory so its not in my place to just came and jot down stuff that will not impact someones life..heey i can do that in my diary on my own time.<br />
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whenever i sit to journal here its for his glory !! so ask yourself what you have taken for granted ?? what are you doing with the abilities and talents that God has placed in your hands ?? are you sitting on them and watch them wither or are you cultivating them, are you like jeremiah saying but Lord i cant speak am only a child ??<br />
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"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; <br />
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." <br />
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6 "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child." <br />
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7 But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD. <br />
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9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant." <br />
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what am i saying ?? God is ready to use us for his glory ! dont ever think your not talented enough or disabled or not bright enough, look at king solomon the wisest of all men, the only way he got to be wise was by asking for wisdom !! the bible says ask and it shall be given,seek and ye shall find, knock and the door will be open to you.<br />
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i know your thinking...its not that easy !! i dint say it was, neither did the Lord,BUT he said <strong>ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH MIM</strong>. and if i know God well <strong>HE IS NOT A MAN THAT HE SHOULD LIE</strong>. there have been a few things that i have shyied away from doing thinking nah i aint that educated, or qualified or worth it, but spending time in God's word is teaching me different, am qualified, am the one God has appointed to use such a time as this !! and you know what am going to do it to the best of my ability, am no longer going to sit down and let situations and people and circumastances dectate what path my life is going to move, <strong>NO SIR !!! </strong>ama let GOD DO HIS thing in and through me. its our generation. the little things that you do that seem ordinary are extra-ordinary in someone else's life so go ahead and take steps of faith.<br />
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<strong>joshua 1:2-9</strong><br />
Moses my servant is dead. Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them—to the Israelites. 3 I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. 4 Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Great Sea [a] on the west. 5 No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; <strong>I will never leave you nor forsake you</strong>. <br />
6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."<br />
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So am going to write, watch out for my name in the standard,nation,hey might sign you an autograph for my book preety soon !!<br />
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blesings<br />
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Wanjiku NdunguWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-20042011285110657552010-06-03T05:50:00.000-07:002010-06-17T05:15:48.000-07:00alone doesnt mean lonely<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYJ_T1_SacB51opzEJsflzqr85LTu4L7wk_yrxJHFXBFIM1IprzIAoAkCiCfhCVGl2eTEk-2xsEO7Tqnujd-G8fQ3JNe0VjAqnXqxdjDS9MthN7Kft1S95kRKiv_j26rr9QwmXRSFaH7mG/s1600/untitled.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" qu="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYJ_T1_SacB51opzEJsflzqr85LTu4L7wk_yrxJHFXBFIM1IprzIAoAkCiCfhCVGl2eTEk-2xsEO7Tqnujd-G8fQ3JNe0VjAqnXqxdjDS9MthN7Kft1S95kRKiv_j26rr9QwmXRSFaH7mG/s320/untitled.JPG" /></a></div>So today i was at the dentist, yes finally having my two crowns placed !! yeey what a relief after several visit for root canal,sweet and sour yet more of funny tastes in my mouth i can finally breath knowing i dont have to open wide for the next two weeks.....the machinery used there is nothing to write home abut coz it would scare the living day lights out of you, but the soft gospel music playing from the cd would sooth me in the chair till my appointment is done....mmhh funny most of the time ive been there PRAISE YOU THROUGH THE STORM -casting crowns is whats been playing..i love this song by the way, but not today i cant recall what song had been playing coz i was too busy listening to God's voice.<br />
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You see i woke up at 8am today from a very interesting dream, in this dream i was spending a quite,romantic even with my boyfriend..it had gotten to the point where we were just looking into each others eyes, wishing tme would stand still and this moment would never pass...and as if my neighbour had heard our thoughts, i was jolted out of my dream by a song done by kerri hilson, yep you guessed it KNOCK YOU DOWN !!!.<br />
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Went outside the house to catch the morning sun, you see this song brought with it memories,and as i stood there, there were millions of things going though my mind...none i can remember funny enough. so i went back to the house and just lay in bed,stood and walked around...and tears started welling on my eyes and i just wanted to cry, they say crying is a good thing it lets out the pain and the anger and it heals !! well ive had enough shares of tears believe you me but today instead of actually sobbing away, i talked to God and all i could manage to say was "God am lonely". <br />
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Many times when i feel like this i say a short prayer and move on or call a friend and fix a date ! or just take a movie and let the akwardness within me pass..but today i stood there and waited for God to answer, i stood there demanding a right to an answer, as i stood still and quite i longed to be held tight and be affirmed that i was not alone...and the words came out so clearly like they did all those years ago...I love you, God loves you and alone doesnt mean your lonely.<br />
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I remembered this teaching i read from joyce meyer,<br />
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<strong>Know that God is with you all the time. In the Bible God reminds us that He is always with us and He'll never forsake us (see Hebrews 13:5). Loneliness often leads us to ask ourselves all sorts of questions that can't be answered, such as: What if I am alone for the rest of my life? What if this pain I am feeling never goes away? What if a problem arises that I don't know how to handle on my own? What if...what if...what if...? The questions could go on and on endlessly. Chances are, you'll never be able to answer the "what ifs" in life. But as long as you know that the Lord is with you, you can be assured that He has all the answers you need.</strong><br />
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So as the dentist was removing the temporary teeth to place the new crowns, i remembered my temporary moment of loneliness and how in a matter of minutes it was replaced with love and joy,it reminded of how how many people who still have not known how much God loves them, how much he longed for a relationship with them. it reminded me of my primary purpose in this world. To tell everyone that God loved them. friend GOD LOVES YOU !!!It doesnt mean this times of aloneness will not come but how we will handle them and not let them dictate what happens to our day,or month or year, or how we will relate and live..thats whats important.<br />
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<strong>Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path<br />
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Wanjiku NdunguWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-52862702184036082532010-06-02T06:43:00.000-07:002010-06-17T05:45:04.415-07:00Dot Dot Dot....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFgQ2vQKDZ4ZuZTvt4oOkSCs6uIxTAVq9G1YVn3jeqF9yqP95Lp_Q-FWR625UcxyoXO3n44okeBGWI2Vhfpri_ufkb1qUegyf9CFqewTZH9ZDJO03KYBMBmo2FuWpDrs4QIpb4fIO_Z50Q/s1600/she+and+i.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" qu="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFgQ2vQKDZ4ZuZTvt4oOkSCs6uIxTAVq9G1YVn3jeqF9yqP95Lp_Q-FWR625UcxyoXO3n44okeBGWI2Vhfpri_ufkb1qUegyf9CFqewTZH9ZDJO03KYBMBmo2FuWpDrs4QIpb4fIO_Z50Q/s320/she+and+i.jpg" /></a></div>I connected the dots of friday's event when pastor munene shared during a singles meeting in reconnect.... <br />
i learnt something in school the other day most often when something unpleasant happens people tend to push it in the subconscious and move on,most times this event or tragedy is forgotten to them until something similar happens that brings back that memory to the conscious....when the teacher stated the facts were most of those whom did this were women, especially victims of rape, child molest, and broken hearts....<br />
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Now mine was not a tragedy and though painful its something i pushed away so that i can move on with my life, honesty i did move on for a while and acted like it never happened or he never existed,<br />
but that friday all hell kinda broke loose....i learnt that apparently some men know our thinking pattern so girls be thou warned....<br />
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You see unlike anyother creature women believe that nothing happens out of chance,everything has a reason,and like peter odanga likes to say every face has a story......so as women we like connecting things,the dots no matter how long it takes will connect at some point...so on that day a friend of mine wrote to me,and i couldnt stop smiling, then i went on a panick mode! I rushed to the ladies room and i started crying, funny thing is as i looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself (ok chick this is way too much drama!! Whats wrong now?) i remembered how lets call him joe, had written to me when we were getting to know each other, that email brought with it painful memories and all i could mumble beneath the tears that were freely flowing was "please God i cant do this again...i dont have the strength or tools to handle it, i reminded him how i had given my heart for him to keep and hide me so that i wouldnt have to deal with another broken heart.....you see by reading my friends email it had opened up old closed cans of worms...of promises broken, of sacrifices forgotten, of a heart melted,of memories distorted...<br />
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I know of women who live in fear of dating again, i dint think i was until this incident. That all this time i was afraid, some of us have us have moved on with out dealing and healing the broken heart, but we constantly live in fear that one day that guy in our life will either cheat on us,lie to us or just leave us....when a guy even shows any of the sign associated with what joe did or say we automatically start judging and connecting dots,drawing conclusions...<br />
We need to let go of what happened in the past inorder to live in the future, we need to let go of all the insecurities, we need to like who we are, we need to believe in ourselves and know that we are powerful beyond measure, we need a relationship with God, for only he knows us for he created us,we need to stop being the victims and be the victor!....we need to be forgiven inorder to forgive....we need to heal so as to love,<br />
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<strong>Imagine me,being free trusting you totally...finally i can imagine me.....</strong><br />
That evening as passi prayed all i could mumble beneath the tears flowing down my cheeks was Fix me Lord, fix this hurting heart,heal me and let me forgive.......<br />
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Wanjiku NdunguWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-78747664200884115502010-05-21T01:52:00.000-07:002010-05-21T02:57:55.086-07:00Mountain ClimbingFor everyone who has tried going up the mountain before will tell you that if your not in shape then better re-consider something else, so no i havent been in good shape lately, and yes i have good reasons for not waking up early to exercise like other normal days...but still i set out mountain climbing for a week am actually almost at the mountain peak since its friday and man !! the view,the anticipation ,the relief,the moment ive been waiting for is almost near, i dont know how many of us have seen the ribena advert..the way that purple berry just burst its beautiful,smooth,exciting purple colour,sweet !!! yep so you can imagine am going to be on top of this mountain on sunday. the camera flashing, my friends cheering, my mission accoplished, my answers waiting,my fruits riping, hey it may even rain the Lord does have a good sense of homour, he likes to introduce and celebrate his own in style.<br /><br />I know what your thinking, so what people have climbed mountains before ?? and al tell you yes, they have hell ive attempted many times before !! i only lasted a day or two and in those days all i did was complain and nag, asking God why ? do i really need to do this ?? whens the next meal ?? ohh Lord i cant and honestly it was so pathetic !! so how did i make it this far this time ?? well it was LOVE, yep they say love can make you do crazy things...climb mountains,cross valleys,die for people and hey love people before you even met them !! what was backstreet thinking ??<br />remember the days when you were in high school and its friday and guys will receive letters , smelling of perfume and sfter reading it at the bottm there would be the DEDICATIONS .<br /><br /><strong>dedication</strong><br /><br /><em>for you i will by monica<br />soledad by west life<br />i knew i loved you before i met you -backstreet boyz<br />as long as you love me by backstreet boys...</em><br /><br />sounds familiar huh!! well thats what got me..i got myself the love bug !! i mean how could i not fall for him ?? he is the perfect thing that ever happened to me, he is the kinda guy you take home to meet mama !! he is kind,he listens,he patient,loving,caring,understands,humble,faithful,he provides and protects me i mean i would be crazy not to have done this for him, he loves mountain climbing, he explained it this way, visualise it, <br /><br />Me and my beloved walking hand in hand, throught the expedition peaks, smilling and laughing and enjoying each others company,the ropes and safety harness tying us together as we conquired steep rocks climbing up, mastering the grasps when faced with the steep copped peaks, slidding through the steeper terrains yelling all the way,beating the altitude sickness that would have me throwing up two days in a row...baby if we could beat the altitude and terrain we could beat up anything that came our way.....how could i say no to that ?? how could i say no to spending time with the love of my life, giving myself, my whole self fully and completly to him to have his way with me, intimacy at its deepest of levels, of couse it was hard, i cried, pleaded to go back home but this time he held my hand, he carried me, he gave me water to drink, he nursed me back to health,five days later we still holding hands,giggling, as we climbing on higher by each passing second,minute,hour and day....loving and cherishing each moment we spend together,making memories through this journey to remind us why we need to take this trip every so often.....<br /><br /><br />Love breeds sacrifice, and my sacrifise to this mountain has costed me, food,facebook,television and some friends..... as i come to a close in my fast this week i cant help but fall in love with you more Lord...i loved, i served,i danced,i sang, i listened and heard....<br /><br /><strong>psalm 84<br /><br />i love you LORD.<br /><br />Wanjiku Ndungu</strong>Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-68211898975315615942010-05-13T02:00:00.000-07:002010-05-13T02:30:46.897-07:00WHEN AM UP TO NO GOOD,GOD IS UP TO SOMETHING GOOOD !!!what can i say thats what ive been feeling for the past two weeks, i mean there were so many questions with no answers,or maybe answers that i dint like to hear, i wanted everything to just stand still let me cry and grieve, let this pain all come out damn !!! why do i alwsys end up on at the same door over and over again ? my heart was tired,weak and hurt. there was little i could do about it so i wanted to get back or hit back on the pain i did but it only lasted for a while..........<br /><br />yesterday i read proverbs 3:5 trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding....i sang and held to that verse as if it was the only thing that kept me sane, i talked to God the whole day just saying forgive me and restore me....i met friends who encourage me and walked and listened and prayed with me. for a normal person ciku was fine for those who know me well, i was breaking apart. <br /><br />so yesterday as i was being restored some friends surprised me with a belated birthday white chocolate cake....ive never had a cake for my birthday !!!i couldnt stop smilling, i almost burst out crying....they sang,we ate,they made jokes and it was fun, at a time when i was feeling all alone God was behind the scenes preparing me for a greater day,greater fellowship.....<br /><br />Today i woke up and lingered in bed a little while i talked to God and told him my fears,my dreams and concerns, i opened his word and read hannah's story (the barren woman who finaly got a child by the name of samuel and offered him to God for service)i read about how that woman prayed earnestly without ceasing to God....and man did i love her faith !!! i finished my devotion with psalms 37:4 take delight in the Lord and he will grant you the desires of your Heart...<br /><br />I have a smile on my face today for am delighting in my Lord,My God is up to something today.<br /><br />ciikuWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-7524885824377182452010-05-06T03:55:00.000-07:002010-06-17T05:13:53.727-07:00AM A WOMAN-inspired by Lawi Mwangi<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBoQEpvQ36K2WFBKsUqpIi7PUI_QLO_hu-eaFOS33S9NtGsM8sIM2AMsD8xkMJuOuPGueTnkkNiGspDtV_XT0a2nQi5GCot_wqd3JF5ejJcyZ2q5HYMU1B5a3vxDirGtsrvc4eUJ6A_dPq/s1600/clip_image001.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" qu="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiBoQEpvQ36K2WFBKsUqpIi7PUI_QLO_hu-eaFOS33S9NtGsM8sIM2AMsD8xkMJuOuPGueTnkkNiGspDtV_XT0a2nQi5GCot_wqd3JF5ejJcyZ2q5HYMU1B5a3vxDirGtsrvc4eUJ6A_dPq/s320/clip_image001.jpg" /></a></div>Its 3:30am again, heh God clearly comes at odd hours he he he remember no one knows the day, the time,nor the hour of his coming so when he calls regardless of what time it is! 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Here am Lord what would you have me do?<br />
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So today i finally confessed, becaming a house wife is not such a bad idea,especially when your children are still young and trying to learn all this growing up stuff....i know what your thinking! No it has nothing to do with the fact that Imani Maina was baptized today i mean she is a beautiful baby Wah! Or the fact that i was surrounded with so many mmmm 92 other babies yea the sermon was tricky today he he he babies crying but interesting all the same.....so later today as i was confessing my new found motherly instinct it kinda came as a surprise! Ok let me introduce you to ciiku 5 years ago or rather all life till recently...Corporate woman,closing deals in style,high heels shoes,killer mini suit, professional make up, black bmw,black brief case, gold and visa cards, a flirty mode when needed,and a scent you wouldnt forget even if you tried to! I was out to get the world,out to be a man...out to prove that a woman can do anything and even more than a man can, marriage was well if it happened fine if it dint a house in nyali,a weekend at the bahamas and hell even a vibrator would come in handy.... As for babies well my dears that was definately not my calling i mean every baby i carried screamed their lungs out!! Its like they were screaming chick this aint your forte find your path he he he he <br />
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So two years ago all this started to come into shape the killer job,killer contracts and deals,shaking hands with important people,some holiday here and there and living life in the fast lane! Was loving it! I had everything i wanted ! At the end of each day i would go home or in a restaurant and have supper, i would be sitted there all alone and even after celebrating a big deal closed in the office i couldnt get to celebrate it out of the office...i mean i had friends but hardly had time to see them, couldnt call my family coz ive bounced going home for a month and they couldnt take my word that i would make it the next weekend..... <br />
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Today evening a saw a woman lying in a trench beside the road,for me nairobi is cold and the way she was dressed wasnt helping at all....she was drunk,she was weeping, and this man they were with asked her to alight from the mat that they were in but she wouldnt. So he came out shoved her on the pavement and started driving off....some people crowded and i had to leave,<br />
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We live in the man era so its called and as women we constantly try to beat men in so many ways! I mean look at us we are successful, we are famous,we are intelligent, and man cant we multi task! As men were being Created by God,He took time to Design women. He knew exactly what he was doing when he created you a woman, God took his time to instill the water tanks in your eyes that just start when we have a woishe moment,he created a fragile heart coz he knew loving a man well its not easy he he he,God created those open arms for me to hug even the unhuggeble(i try to stop but i cant:)). He created us strong to face even the most toughest situations and still come out scarred but alive, He created in us a hope when everyone else has given up. He created in us motherly instincts to care and love even those who have hurt us along the way, If God was to do an advert about a woman i guarantee you we would all vuka to the better option.<br />
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Am a Woman and am here to stay, so as i climb this ladder to my career this is the one thing i dont want to forget.....as i plan to put on my killer suit and close deals,as i make business calls and get the urge to be flirtatious i remind myself am a woman,act like a lady think like a man-steve harvey...he he he i dont think so....man enough to be a woman-jayne courty and how to became a man by john birma somethng....Men play dirty women play dirtier and in the process loose not only their morals,self worth,esteem coz as much as you try to hide it,nothing that happens in the dark will not come to light, <br />
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i know people say live life its never that serious....i say would rather live life being me than being buried as someone else.<br />
Aretha franklin's a rose still a rose...baby girl your still a flower....so no matter what has happened in the past, the angels stand in awe of you because you are fearfully and wonderfully made.... <br />
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Genesis 2:22-23Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-81855662760557573282010-04-28T00:00:00.000-07:002010-06-17T05:27:09.493-07:00Lady of Security- My daddy issues<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIT5SNQ0fK5uMtOboR5tBGFS6mTmNtKuWPXhFW-xWJ9uR7zaMFEVZkuzaIa9EwsJEzmA7CGmOiqZ6wNch0HcrRX5Yx7FJ6R6m3btSxFSjAQJtUJnWcPmR5Z8U3HyG3ytZ-Z-2PLD6FWTCs/s1600/daddies.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" qu="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIT5SNQ0fK5uMtOboR5tBGFS6mTmNtKuWPXhFW-xWJ9uR7zaMFEVZkuzaIa9EwsJEzmA7CGmOiqZ6wNch0HcrRX5Yx7FJ6R6m3btSxFSjAQJtUJnWcPmR5Z8U3HyG3ytZ-Z-2PLD6FWTCs/s320/daddies.jpg" /></a></div>I know what your think! Nah honestly i dont, for those who read one of the notes in search of a father well this is a continuation and sort of different look of the note....<br />
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I woke up that morning with no joy or peace in my heart, the events of the past week were nothing to write home about, i felt ashamed,angry and couldnt stand myself...questions of does God still love me? How does he view me now? What is wrong with me! Dint i know better again what was i thinking! Its hard asking yourself all this questions without getting any answers kinda makes it worse actually......<br />
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Lets give him a name and call him ...'peter, so peter and i were friends very close but not dating or anything we enjoyed each others company nothing was demanded from either of us and it was just good having someone that i could talk to, you know the kinda guy where no strings are attached just great,hang out and all...so we had been "hanging out for a couple of months and it was great until this day we were at a party and decided to crash at his place. I mean we had been around each other for sometime and the boundaries were clear but like they say sometimes its the lack of opportunity that holds us from doing somethings so this was an opportunity and as we were watching this love story there was tight hugging and next thing i was kissing him. I stopped at some point and started crying and telling him how wrong it was and that it should never happen again.After a weeks it happened again and i dint have anything to yell about coz clearly i would look dumb saying one thing and totally doing something different. So i decided i would do it like a man you know with no feelings or emotions besides wasnt anything just harmless friendship with benefits right?? <br />
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We watch a lot of talk shows especially american ones the likes of tyra banks and oprah and see alot of women come to the show and air their family issues on tv and i know like me most of us have vowed never ever! Even thought that this women were weak you know so what if your daddy abused you when you were a child life starts again! So what if you never met your daddy deal with it! So what if your daddy said you will never amount to anything! So what if your daddy was polygamus, So what if your daddy never loved you! So what this and that....yea they are pretty lame so we think.....How do you view God? <br />
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So one day peter asks me do you think your dad loves you? Looked him straight in the eye and told him i wasnt going to have that discussion with him, he apologised and asked again this time thinking he was framing it better so he asked do you know your dad loves you? I just started weeping....i burst out of the room and i came face to the reality that honestly i couldnt answer that question! I mean tell me how many of our african fathers tell us what they think of us. How many fathers tell their kids of how proud they are of them? I loved my father and honesty speaking every person i dated had to have some characteristics of him....problem is same way i viewed my father is the same way i viewed God! I just dint know how or what he thought of me, i went through life trying to fill that love with different people...had crazy expectations in the relationships i was in. Women all over the world want one thing Security,the desire to be cherished and loved and accepted. And if one dint experience this with their father chances are they will be looking for it somewhere else...or we will have the "i can do it like a man " bunch of women, so they work hard climb the cooperate ladder and mostly referred to as the lady of terror dont be fooled all that is just a face yes we can put it on so well but deep down we long to be secure he will never leave you nor forsake you,this is my favorate verse in the bible but it never made sense until that sunday when i couldnt stop weeping and praying and finally made the drive to my parents house....i was ready to either have it all or loose it all, i was at a point where if my dad and i dint resolve things that happened in the past i just would continue being afraid, not committing,always trying to find fault in a relationship and taking an exit, never opening my heart to really accept being loved and to love back....it was either my relationship with my father or my relationship with my God because if thats how i viewed him then how will i ever trust him how would i trust God that he loved me and cared for and wanted the best for me. I was tired of being the man in my relationships always trying to call the shots,always having unrealistic expectations in relationships,always wanting to be affirmed that i was loved and cared for....<br />
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As i prayed for God's favour that day i talked to dad, about my relationship with him,with my other siblings,his relationship with my mother and all of us as a family.....we talked bout my insecurities my view of God, bout my relationship with men and my fears......its like i was finally saying everything that was bottled inside me and this time the right person was listening. He listened, explained where he need to,apologised,assured his love to me and prayed for me. Not in a million years did i ever thought it would go the way it did.......<br />
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Was watching how i met your mother and barney was saying. Wat for it.........yea that he loved bimbos coz they had so much daddy issues so they were easy to sleep with and do whatever since the bimbo was accepting anything that came along to find the daddy they never had. <br />
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abraham's daughterWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-4624897816927496372010-04-02T02:18:00.000-07:002010-04-02T02:19:13.611-07:00A lady of faith and VirtueFaith its defination always puzzles me. Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see....honestly speaking sometimes i think this is just crazy! But then i fail to explain how i can pray and believe for something and it actually happens and comes true! So my intelligent question is what do i have to loose? So ye beautiful women please make me understand why we pray and believe God for so many big things in our lives you know the promotion at work, our health, more salary,that beautiful house weve been eyeing and scholarship those fees etc but the one thing that we secretly and ceasingly pray for but dont really believe God is really interested in that part of our lives.<br /><br />I remember many are the time i prayed and told God you can handle all this but the relationship bit you know am good at this so please let me do my thing.....and girls dint i do many stupid things! Its funny how we panic when we find ourselves living in make-sparse estates or going to male sparse churches ha ha ha. Believe you me am laughing at myself just thinking of how i used to complain that our church had no potential men to get married to.... <br /><br />There are so many things women have done inorder to get a man, visited different churches,gone to retreats,travelled to back and forth in different towns,joined a choir and so many other stuff. Some which ive done my self and honestly after this so called relationships dint work out all i felt was drained drained and more drained! Girls if there is one thing am learning right now is that God does not need our clever chance rendezvous to give us a man. Same way we pray about all things we want in our lives we should pray for relationships with other people....<br /><br /><br />God knows the desires of your heart and yes the amount little piece of faith i have am believing that even if your in the jungle God is not limited by your circumstances and geographical location he knows your desires and he will bring them into accomplishment...recent studies have shown that the older a woman get the less preference and demands on the life partner becames....thats why we find women in their late twenties and early thirties settling not only for what God had not planned for them but their expectations as well. Check out this example.<br /><br />20yrs old<br />-a godly man<br />-does not drink alcohol or smoke<br />-kind and gentle<br />-honest. <br /><br />25 years old<br />-a godly man<br />-only drinks and smokes casually<br />-kind<br /><br />29-35 years old<br />-at least goes to church<br />-drink and smoke casually<br />-can put up with me. <br /><br />God dint create us to settle he created us to get the best which is him then the second best the man he chooses for us. So please let us not hesitate to live life dont pass opportunities to travel and go for missions just cause you think life will pass you by no God will come through at his appointed time...lets soak our energies in the things of God. <br /><br />Lady of virtue.....<br /><br />What is the one thing that you love about your body....wait for it..my hips! Oh how i love them! ...now this is me imagining them 30 years from now....i know not a pretty picture at all! Thing is if i dude is to like what he sees in my outward appearance and 30years from now it fades what next? So does this mean that when am ugly i wont get married or when my beauty fades i will no longer be loved? No, thats why as women we are called to cultivate our inner beauty....please indulge me. <br /><br />I remember sometime back whenever i would go to a wedding i would check out the bride and honestly some i would conclude were not as preety but later on i would get to know the bride and man would i swallow whateter comment i had made about them i found them to have qualities to die for kindness,gentleness,good listeners etc am happy to say that some are good friends till today and i draw and learn so much from them. <br /><br />When you read proverbs 31 you think perfection i think opportunity...how lucky are we as women that God allowed solomon to put this wise characteristics down i mean there they are plain in black and white this the way a christian or any woman for that matter should carry themselves! <br /><br />So am taking a challenge this month am praying and exersing provers 31:1 a wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies....lets dig up info on rubies,lets pray that God will develop this character in us that we will find ourselves worth. <br /><br />For some of us life hasnt been so fair, am talking about rape,abusive relationships,angry parents and spouses,taken advantage of by friends and so many other things which had yielded to insecurity,jealousy,envy,selfishness,pity,anger and lack of self esteem and lack of self worth. I weep when i think of such things but i thank my God in heaven who is merciful and loving to us. My dear God can heal your pain, he can take it all away and give you a new lease of life. Am a testimony of what lack of self esteem can do to a person and believe me its not something i would wish any of you to go through....i thank God ive found my worth in christ and everyday he gives me a bucket full of love to share,my God wants the best for you just let him heal your pain you will not forget but you will forgive. Let us be ladies of virtue......<br /><br />Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-68493486810800382882010-03-29T14:42:00.001-07:002010-03-29T14:42:15.771-07:00Reckless abandonment and diligence indeed.For those who have read lady in awaiting title of this blog is familiar, yep started yesterday and already am feeling like ive wasted so much of my precious life and time and single hood in pursuit of happiness from earthly standards rather than heavenly ones....where is your treasure stored today? Whats in your alabaster box ? Well mine was filled with a great career, meaningful relationship,kids then ministry etc yes sometimes i held back from doing things since i dint want to disrupt this plan....<br />Well in reckless abandonment am learning how to take all my dreams,fantasies to Jesus to let him guide me,lead me, teach me, am learning to stand naked at his presence with nothing to call my own,nothing hidden away just incase things dont work out. Completely giving of myself as a bride does on her wedding nite....<br />Ive chosen to break my alabaster box before my saviour for he is worth it. I dont want my relationship to be about what i get but what i give, oh how i long for the day i will see you face to face to behold your beauty....i no longer want a mediocre relationship with Jesus but an intimate radical relationship...<br />Lord how my heart longs for you how i pursue your heart each and everyday of my life......giving you all that i was,all that am and all that i ever hoped to be.<br /> <br />As a lady of diligence i will serve you Lord, show me the areas you want me to serve in your church. As single women we are privillaged to have time and opportunity to serve God. Lets not take it for granted. All of us were created for a purpose in the body of christ dont leave an unfulfilled life...its time we stopped with the pity parties and cultivate a real relationship with God, how many of us have put our lives on hold? You know we are still waiting for the right guy,right job, right opportunity etc some of us 5 years down the line live in half furnished house since we regard it as a temporary place before you get the mansion! Well am tired of surviving even existing. I want to live! I dont want to wait for anyone or anything to live better,dress better,exercise better,go back to school, buy and look different...nah it starts now me doing all this coz am worth it. Am a child of the most high God and am promised a full life! So here are three things i personally need to do that ive put on hold.<br />1. Go on a holiday! Yep alone and enjoy and relax.<br />2. Furnish my house. its time it became a home.<br />3. Go for a photo shoot! I have several frames 2yrs down the line with no photos...<br />4. Volunteer to speak at girl schools and teens. This is my calling i think its time i answered.<br />5.Sing and serve at intimacy and aflewo. I have a feeling God wants me to be apart of something big this year so when he calls all i will say is yes Lord what would you have me do.<br />This are some of the few things..yes there is plenty believe me with God all things are possible...<br />So as we live now dont let your purpose pass you by find your ministry and give it your all.....<br /><br />The harvest is plenty but the labourers are few.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-43138137680882622122010-03-24T08:13:00.000-07:002010-03-24T08:23:45.697-07:00RESSURECTIONthis words describe what i want to say to God today..............<br /><br />I'm at a loss for words, there's nothing to say,<br />I sit in silence wondering what led me to this place,<br />How did my heart become so lifeless and coldWhere did the passion go?<br />When all my efforts seem like chasing wind<br />I've used up all my strength and there's nothing left to give<br />I've lost the feeling and I'm numb to the coreI can't fake it anymore.<br /><br />chorus:<br />Here I am at the end I'm in need of resurrection<br />Only You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead<br />What I've lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption<br />You can take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again, again<br /><br />You speak and all creation falls to its knees<br />You raise Your hand and calm the waves of the raging sea<br />You have a way of turning winter to springMake something beautiful out of all this suffering<br /><br />chorus 2:<br />Here I am once again I'm in need of resurrectionOnly<br />You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead<br />What I've lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption<br />You can take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again, again<br />You have a way of turning winter to springMake something beautiful out of all this sufferingWanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-58062576030567471072010-03-06T02:45:00.000-08:002010-03-06T03:05:51.397-08:00DAY 4 AND 5....so day four was a wednesday mhh tokad jobo at around 5:30pm had a movie date..so was just buming at home til around 7 pm shower change and catch the 9pm movie..tyep was going to watch "its complicated" with someone who is complicated he he he....so was getting ready when my friend called, he had to cancel and fly to nairobi there was something we had been praying about and he got the call on his way oto my place so yea, i decided to watch a movie from home..cant remember wat i was watching though......got bored anyway and remembered that i had a shrink on call :0 yes i pay a lot for those services ,so i called we chatted....it was a good conversation but i dont like the way i just open up !! i mean dont tis shrinks get way too much info on a person ??<br /><br />i ended up sleeping at around 11:30pm, and yea hungry to top it...when i was busy pourin my heart out..my shrink was having dinner, making a beat which i think is awesome !!! and facebookin... yea..they can be cold like this.... but it was good conversation..thank God he aint boring...or maybe.....<br /><br />day 5.<br /><br />thursday...rushed to class yep was out of the office by 4pm, and like karma they choose to use me like a case study !! shrinks...;) apparently i have isue i need to sort in my life and yea they were abit painful to hear but am glad i did and i can now do something about it.....<br /><br />was at tabby's my girlfriend at 8pm and we made supper and talked and she gave me my birthday gift !! yep friday is my birthday...turning 20 !!! as always. pitiad stevo and another gift..am liking my birthday already !!! eve of it to be precise...<br /><br />went home watched 2 episodes of chuck and wanted to talk to my shrink but he had warned me to never call past 10pm !!! the nerve..anyhu yea its like that and for the first time in many years am actually doing what people want....<br /><br />ad am out !!Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-91397272116038220682010-03-02T21:25:00.000-08:002010-03-02T21:56:21.259-08:00DAY 2 and 3,So i tokad job at around 5:15, yes i lied to my shrink that it was 5pm..but isnt it the same this...5pm is 5pm..whether 5:o5 or 5:30 its 5 !!!<br /><br />ok went home, showered,cleaned up some dishes i had used int he morning, warmed up some left overs rice,some meat and greens..;) yep chick is trying to stay healthy !! and sat down to watch a movie....the time travellers wife !! its a great moving story..ive read its book twice and still wow i cant explain it...watched a second movie...smething the Lord made....great movie also..and great lessons learnt.<br /><br />was asleep by 10pm !! next morning i started out a new exercise plan wha !!!! its intense..bti like it..35minutes and i feel like a new born....<br /><br />hurray..si am proud of myself..and yes it was relaxing and slow and lazy....i like !!!<br /><br /><br />DAY 3...<br /><br />was home by six...i know i said no dates but read what the shrink said..if its necessary then go out !! ; ) i love pizza anyone who knows me knows its the only thing after God in my heart..he he he so i had a pizza date yesterday,<br /><br />went home showered and was picked by 6:30pm, i havent talked to my date for a while just some issues here and there but i thought that we would put behind us..i suggested a movie..you know less conversation...but he insisted on dinner ..more conversatio,we dint make it for pizza so opted to have dinner at a restaurant near home..it went well.<br /><br />was home by 8:00pm watched another movie...black wman guide to getting married..dont ask !!! lol,then i watched the white masai ive never watched this movie though it was so popular at some point....and at 10:30 i went to sleep....<br /><br />let me confess something that although its relaxing you taking things slow...me time is a bit hard because ive never spent time apart from Good.....and thats how i felt going to sleep yesterday..i felt alone..so a much as i take time to relax i need God before me,beside me,around me....i love him so much and honestly am nothing without him...<br /><br /><br />lets see what my shrink has to say.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-18154588943823402062010-03-01T05:48:00.000-08:002010-03-01T06:06:24.757-08:00DAY 1OK so you all know the plan was this week beginning sunday was me taking a rest day..yes i still have to go to work but take a rest and close out from the world...and just rest !!! so the plot for sunday was to wake up early go to church 8am service be back at home b 11:30, have ahuge lunch/breakfast then sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep !!!!! till 5pm wake up go for a moovie at cinemax then grab a light supper and nbe in bed by 9pm !!!<br /><br />woke up at 6am but decided to sleep some more..wokr up at 9am and prepared for church had a great breakfast courtesy of joan..my friend and neighbour..went for the 11 -1pm service..yes i was faitful i went straigh home..on the way sister called, i mean how could i sa no !! so i figure..we will have lunch al takke a nap as she catches a movie or surf on the laptop...five minutes later joan calle "hey andrew and i are coming over at my place and he insists we have lunch so be at my place in half an hour !!!" mhhh did i mention i have a problem saying no to my friends so yea headed home..since i wouldnt nap anyway i decide to tidy the place,arrange stuf and vuala it was 3:30 .<br /><br />my sister came over and we went to joans catced up, played poker had a lunch late/supper abnd went back home around 7pm...had a heart to heart wit my sister wa !! we prayed and by 9pm she went home...i showed, read my last three chapters of the book of mark..am going throug the new testament...two chapters per day...we are doing 3chapters as church but 3 are just too many for me...; )...<br /><br />so i decide to sleep then i remembered june, a work mate had given me an exersice cd..yep a girl wants to keep in shape..havent jogged for a while so yea...copied it to the laptop and went to bed about 11:30pm !!!<br /><br />hey dont look at me like that..i really tried !!! come on....monday is definately going to get better...so am leaving the office now 5pm on the dot !!<br /><br />dont know what te shrink will think about this one...we wait and see..Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-79257587536742817292010-02-26T21:11:00.000-08:002010-02-26T21:29:20.888-08:00an arrghh !!!! momnentwell a lot has been happening in my life lately and honestly i just feel tired and worn out, so i confided in a friend yester day and they gave me an assignement....now for the people who know me..i work,work,work yea that basically what i do with my life and now add to school,church,family friends etc...i find myself up by 6am in and only going to sleep at 12am in the nite...i know what your thinkking !!! workaholic !! well can you blame me ! am trying to live in a way that am not idle you know,be involved in stuff, they say an idle mind is a devil's worskshop and believe you me...i know !!! been trying to get leave from work but its beeen denied each time, i love my job and love waking up wanting to rush to the office and do what i do best but it hasnt been so the last two weeks...maybe it has something to do with my priorities changing as well ?? yep ! my priorities are no my God,my family,school,work,my friends !<br /><br />Can this be the reason for my frustrations ??? especially of late ive been thinking of quiting my job and joining ministry..dont ask am waiting on the Lord to confirm this.....maybe its time for change in my life !! maybe its time i set targets to win souls for christ that numbers for coke !!! maybe....<br /><br />the shrink's name will remain confidential but this is what he wrote......<br /><br />Sorry for all the work, just compensate yourself: asn, take time out for yourself. Besides the days you HAVE TO meet with anyone, go home and catch a good meal on the way home. That’s what I have always done because I work really stupid shifts sometimes. You might appear to be anti social but put yourself first.<br /><br />Secondly, you can complain about people all day but what matters is what you are able to achieve. If you can reach your targets and you are at peace, whether you get leave or not will not be a big deal.<br />Take next week for example, cancel social meetings/ dates that aren’t urgent at all, buy a series and go home straight after work but grab a good meal on your way home. When you get home, take a shower, watch two episodes(do not exceed) and get into bed, latest 9.30 pm. Give yourself a week of good sleep and enough rest and you will be back to shape.<br /><br />You can start putting yourself first, I doubt you do it and only do meetings/ dates that will increase your products circulation, cash flow or relationships with vital people. Start shedding off extra baggage and watch who and what gets to your heart…<br /><br /><br />I hope that helps…<br /><br />well i took the challenge or rather am taking the challenge, hope you guys keep accountable and will try my best to post whats going on....and if indeed this remedy is working !!! and if your in my position please lets do thid !!!<br /><br />shrink...i thank you in advance.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-66737002954594848392010-02-22T00:07:00.000-08:002010-02-22T00:45:20.540-08:00I have to find the one, inorder to became the one.Love the Lord your God with all your heart,all your mind, and all your soul.........<br /><br />Movies are a great way to relax and pass time, i literally can spend a whole saturday just engrossed on the telly or wita 40 in 1 dvd....others say its used to escape the realities of the world and situations that surround us....i mean look at the relatioships that are potrayed in movies..boy meets girl,thunderstruck and love just blossoms....first date,first kiss,meet the parents then vuala !!! he tells his boys he has met the one, the girlfriends are tired of hearing his name in every sentence....he goes down on one knee,...she says i do,big bang wedding ! and they live happily ever after.............man i watch too many movies !!!<br /><br />So does this really happen in reality ??? you know finding the love of your life,the rib of your rib,the one your compatible with,your soulmate.....the "ONE"<br />Most people live their lives serching,waiting for this "one" well until a few weeks ago i too was waiting for my one until i learnt a certain truth in a verse in a whole different light...<br /><br />ask yourself what are your priorities in life ??? well i found out mine were work,work,work,my relationship,friends,family,myself then God......notice the "were" yes...thats how i had always put things inoder in my life...<br /><br />seek ye first the kingdom of God......love the Lord your God with all your heart,mind and soul...how is t even after knowing this verse for so many yeras,and even being in salvation for 7years it still dint hit me ! that God is to be my nuber ONE in everything, its like it finally hit me when the preacher asked how many are still waiting for the one and i raised up my hand....how can i be waiting for the one when He had been there with me this whole time !!! .<br /><br />The ONE who has been there for me and with me though the up's and downs...one has comforted me through the joys and the pain..the one who believed in me when i dint believein myself !! i had been so blinded to finding and waiting for the one when he was just there waiting for me.....who can love me like Jesus does ? who can understand me,care for me,forgive me,discipline me,talk to me,satisfy me...like Jesus does !!!! the ONE found me a long time ago....my future husband has to be content to be number two in my life, for the first position was filled 7 years ago......<br /><br />As i pursue him,to find my Jesus,to love on him, to fellowship with him..to be intimate with him....am finding my one everyday because everyday he reveals something new......<br />Lord how i love you, how i adore you,how my heart goes and longs and years after you to live for you and wait on you......<br /><br />To my ONE and only - Jesus Christ.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-72355252445680768792010-02-15T01:28:00.000-08:002010-02-15T01:30:16.578-08:00IN SEARCH OF A FATHERI have a father who will never ever fail me, Jesus is my father and he will never ever fail me,rock of ages he will never ever fail....thus goes the song cant remember who the artist is but it a beautiful song.....i wish i had known this truth about God along time ago maybe i wouldnt have spent sleepless nights,i wouldnt have soaked my pillows with tears,i wouldnt wish i was dead,i wouldnt try so hard to get peoples approval their attention, i wouldnt have dated the unbelievers,fooled around with the already committed....I say "maybe" coz life is a series of choices that we have to make everyday,everytime in our life time......<br /><br />Ndungu my dad has always been my hero, he was the model father,taught me everything about the world,how to carry myself as a lady,how important i was,how to make money, i mean if you were to find us talking about everything from politics to saving and shares and business you would think am his sister or friend....he is the man i wanted for a husband,kind,loves his children,provides for his family, spends time with his kids,teacher his kids right from wrong,disciples and instill and teach dependency on ones self, making money and business and becaming a better you ....etc i dont know if my sister and brothers agree with me in all this or maybe i say all this coz i love him so much......but somewhere along the way through circumstances in life that image was tarnished....along the way i grew up and saw things differently....<br /><br />My heart goes to the young girls who were brought up without their daddies present,to those who still dont know who their daddy is,to the young woman who asks why her daddy left,to the career woman who wonders why every relationship she is in ends as quickly and quitely as it started, to the lady who finds herself as the other woman in every relationship....to the girl who is desperately looking for her model father.......<br /><br />All of them searching for a father through the men in their lives.......<br /><br />Today am a victor because even after being saved for six years i still searched,compromised,punished myself for my fathers mistakes.....i carried this load in my heart and went out seeking to treat every man well,giving in to some demands because i was afraid they would leave me,taking all the crap and baggage they threw at me....i was afraid to disappoint, to be single, not to be loved....i was afraid of being alone all this time not remembering that i had a father who loved,cared,valued,longed for me.....all this time i had so much hatred,esteem issues and so much pain,so much rage,so much anger......settled for less just because someone else made a mistake,<br /><br />To love takes trust, and ive had to trust myself,forgive myself and accept Gods forgiveness....Lord forgive me for all the times i pushed you away when you only wanted nothing but the best for me....although Ndungu has made some choices that i dont agree with he is still my father,my daddy and i love him so much,and there is nothing more i would love that him accepting Jesus as his saviour.....<br /><br />There are so many of us out there who are going through all this right now but i just want to tell you there is a father who loves you more than anything in the whole world wide.......look in the mirror and see Gods beauty and love and grace and peace...you are his creation made in his image and nothing and no one could ever love you like he does..... Accept him as your father today and let him teach you how to be YOU...let him teach you how to love,to care,to talk and walk for he knows you well,he created you and in his perfect time he will bring one of his sons whom he can entrust your heart to.<br /><br />I call him the love of my life for only he has loved me with a love that i dint have to earn,and one that i will never loose.....<br /><br />I LOVE YOU DADDY.Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-23966230914063903322010-01-21T00:50:00.000-08:002010-02-02T02:01:00.358-08:00Its not about YOU, Its not about ME,Its about my king,my God,my Lord, The Love of my Life !!21/01/2010 at 09:37<br /><br />Dont misunderstand me, am human,i have human feelings and emotions but like a friend put it today am not your ordinary girl, you may think am naive,imature and all the other english words that are there to describe me ,but know this i have someone who i answer to ! I think am finally sick and tired of being someone else ! may the real hannah tephanie wanjiku ndungu please stand up !!!<br /><br />have u ever felt that you dint measure up ? was not good enough ? maybe even damaged ? have you tried seeking for love and acceptance in all the wrong places ? all the wrong people ? being in relationships for the wrong reson ?? does life really have to be a battle ?? did God intend it this way ?? the bible says love is a beautiful thing ?? "thou shall love your neighbour like you love yourself ! " but we have turned love and being in a relationship into an idol of some sort, if your not in one there is probably something wrong with you !<br /><br />As women we have accepted to be objects of lust while we were created to be temples, accepting thrills that last for a while just to up our esteem or prove a point ? where did i go wrong ? when did i forget that am loved with a love that i dint earn and one i will never loose ?? i weep not only for myself but for the women of the world..... "seek ye first the kingdom of God " i think i have lost my way, ive lost my footing,i have forgotten my priorities....ive been sucked into the the world's defination of happiness and love.<br /><br />I apologise to my sister,my girlfriends,my family and my friends for being self centered and petty and selfish, love should be a choice i make everyday, i will love because He (GOD) loved me first ! i choose to be complete in him. Dont misunderstand me i DO live in the world am just NOT of the world....so i sure should act like IT !Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688204124941804439.post-4489187790489241212010-01-21T00:40:00.000-08:002010-01-21T00:48:41.187-08:00BEING THANKFUL IS A CHOICE I MAKE NOT TO FORGET WHAT GOD HAS DONE FOR ME !Thursday, 31 December 2009 at 15:23<br /><br /><br />1.First i would like to thank my Lord and saviour Jesus Christ, for the wonderful,beautiful,unpredictable year 2009 !!! it rocked with you my love and one thing i know is that i can never go too far not to be able to come back home.....i dont have any regret Jesus,7 years in you and through you seem like a day.<br /><br />2.My family mum,dad my two brother and shiro my one and only sister...your the best !am so happy to be part of your life. i love and cherish u deeply.<br /><br />3. evelyne ndanu and pastor edward munene (ICC) - I thank and Bless the Lord for you ! both of you have changed my life and i can never repay you for the teachings and support. God bless you !!<br /><br />4. Joan and Lorna my soul sisters !!! ivy,ndinda,tabs each time i meet you seems like the first time. i wouldnt trade your friendship for anything !!! i pray that ive at least given back even if its a quater of what u have given me.<br /><br />5. Intimacy ( the family ) best decision i made in 2009 !! i love you guys always in my prayers,andrew its your calling never doubt it ! !<br /><br />6.Zain Kenya and Cocacola -mombasa- best companies ive ever worked for...yani i would re-do this whole year just to work with you again,chrispo and charles (the best bosses ever !) thank you for believing in me !! praise God target ya 2009 tumemake !! God is faithful<br /><br />7.two books that have spoken and changed my life The Bible-Basic instructionbefore leaving earth ! -JEHOVAH,Woman thou art loose -T.D JAKES and Healing for damaged emotions -DAVID A. SEAMANDS. would recommend everyone to read them<br /><br />!8. Bem,Kelvin,Dan,Muthami,Naftali,Myna,Steve,Chris and Lawi....thank you all for keeping a sister sane !<br /><br />9.to me,my self and i....girl every morning i look in the mirror i see God's face ! no one said it would be easy but all things are possible through christ who strengthnes me.<br /><br />10. all my friends ...i love and cherish you. thank you for being part of my 2009.<br />May God continue to keep you until the day of our Lord Jesus christ !!!<br /><br />YALL ROCK !!<br /><br />2010 BRING IT ONNNNNNNNN !<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=3657620&op=1&view=all&subj=252466030338&aid=-1&auser=0&oid=252466030338&id=519681262"></a>Wanjiku Ndung'uhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14675771697406918379noreply@blogger.com2