Tuesday, June 15, 2010

We were called for much greater things than these....

Hi guys,

i know havent blogged for some weeks but all has ben well, i thank God for his grace and mercy more so for his forgiveness in my life, we serve a God who is full of surprises, ive been meaning to blog about various issues but he keeps reminding me that this is just not an ordinary blog, That its not about me, that everthing i do and go through are for his glory so its not in my place to just came and jot down stuff that will not impact someones life..heey i can do that in my diary on my own time.

whenever i sit to journal here its for his glory !! so ask yourself what you have taken for granted ?? what are you doing with the abilities and talents that God has placed in your hands ?? are you sitting on them and watch them wither or are you cultivating them, are you like jeremiah saying but Lord i cant speak am only a child ??

jeremiah 1 :10


"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

6 "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child."

7 But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD.

9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."

what am i saying ?? God is ready to use us for his glory ! dont ever think your not talented enough or disabled or not bright enough, look at king solomon the wisest of all men, the only way he got to be wise was by asking for wisdom !! the bible says ask and it shall be given,seek and ye shall find, knock and the door will be open to you.

i know your thinking...its not that easy !! i dint say it was, neither did the Lord,BUT he said ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH MIM. and if i know God well HE IS NOT A MAN THAT HE SHOULD LIE. there have been a few things that i have shyied away from doing thinking nah i aint that educated, or qualified or worth it, but spending time in God's word is teaching me different, am qualified, am the one God has appointed to use such a time as this !! and you know what am going to do it to the best of my ability, am no longer going to sit down and let situations and people and circumastances dectate what path my life is going to move, NO SIR !!! ama let GOD DO HIS thing in and through me. its our generation. the little things that you do that seem ordinary are extra-ordinary in someone else's life so go ahead and take steps of faith.

joshua 1:2-9
Moses my servant is dead. Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them—to the Israelites. 3 I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. 4 Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Great Sea [a] on the west. 5 No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.
6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

So am going to write, watch out for my name in the standard,nation,hey might sign you an autograph for my book preety soon !!

blesings


Wanjiku Ndungu

Thursday, June 3, 2010

alone doesnt mean lonely

So today i was at the dentist, yes finally having my two crowns placed !! yeey what a relief after several visit for root canal,sweet and sour yet more of funny tastes in my mouth i can finally breath knowing i dont have to open wide for the next two weeks.....the machinery used there is nothing to write home abut coz it would scare the living day lights out of you, but the soft gospel music playing from the cd would sooth me in the chair till my appointment is done....mmhh funny most of the time ive been there PRAISE YOU THROUGH THE STORM -casting crowns is whats been playing..i love this song by the way, but not today i cant recall what song had been playing coz i was too busy listening to God's voice.

You see i woke up at 8am today from a very interesting dream, in this dream i was spending a quite,romantic even with my boyfriend..it had gotten to the point where we were just looking into each others eyes, wishing tme would stand still and this moment would never pass...and as if my neighbour had heard our thoughts, i was jolted out of my dream by a song done by kerri hilson, yep you guessed it KNOCK YOU DOWN !!!.

Went outside the house to catch the morning sun, you see this song brought with it memories,and as i stood there, there were millions of things going though my mind...none i can remember funny enough. so i went back to the house and just lay in bed,stood and walked around...and tears started welling on my eyes and i just wanted to cry, they say crying is a good thing it lets out the pain and the anger and it heals !! well ive had enough shares of tears believe you me but today instead of actually sobbing away, i talked to God and all i could manage to say was "God am lonely".

Many times when i feel like this i say a short prayer and move on or call a friend and fix a date ! or just take a movie and let the akwardness within me pass..but today i stood there and waited for God to answer, i stood there demanding a right to an answer, as i stood still and quite i longed to be held tight and be affirmed that i was not alone...and the words came out so clearly like they did all those years ago...I love you, God loves you and alone doesnt mean your lonely.

I remembered this teaching i read from joyce meyer,

Know that God is with you all the time. In the Bible God reminds us that He is always with us and He'll never forsake us (see Hebrews 13:5). Loneliness often leads us to ask ourselves all sorts of questions that can't be answered, such as: What if I am alone for the rest of my life? What if this pain I am feeling never goes away? What if a problem arises that I don't know how to handle on my own? What if...what if...what if...? The questions could go on and on endlessly. Chances are, you'll never be able to answer the "what ifs" in life. But as long as you know that the Lord is with you, you can be assured that He has all the answers you need.

So as the dentist was removing the temporary teeth to place the new crowns, i remembered my temporary moment of loneliness and how in a matter of minutes it was replaced with love and joy,it reminded of how how many people who still have not known how much God loves them, how much he longed for a relationship with them. it reminded me of my primary purpose in this world. To tell everyone that God loved them. friend GOD LOVES YOU !!!It doesnt mean this times of aloneness will not come but how we will handle them and not let them dictate what happens to our day,or month or year, or how we will relate and live..thats whats important.

Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path
psalms 119:105


Wanjiku Ndungu

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Dot Dot Dot....

I connected the dots of friday's event when pastor munene shared during a singles meeting in reconnect....
i learnt something in school the other day most often when something unpleasant happens people tend to push it in the subconscious and move on,most times this event or tragedy is forgotten to them until something similar happens that brings back that memory to the conscious....when the teacher stated the facts were most of those whom did this were women, especially victims of rape, child molest, and broken hearts....

Now mine was not a tragedy and though painful its something i pushed away so that i can move on with my life, honesty i did move on for a while and acted like it never happened or he never existed,
but that friday all hell kinda broke loose....i learnt that apparently some men know our thinking pattern so girls be thou warned....

You see unlike anyother creature women believe that nothing happens out of chance,everything has a reason,and like peter odanga likes to say every face has a story......so as women we like connecting things,the dots no matter how long it takes will connect at some point...so on that day a friend of mine wrote to me,and i couldnt stop smiling, then i went on a panick mode! I rushed to the ladies room and i started crying, funny thing is as i looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself (ok chick this is way too much drama!! Whats wrong now?) i remembered how lets call him joe, had written to me when we were getting to know each other, that email brought with it painful memories and all i could mumble beneath the tears that were freely flowing was "please God i cant do this again...i dont have the strength or tools to handle it, i reminded him how i had given my heart for him to keep and hide me so that i wouldnt have to deal with another broken heart.....you see by reading my friends email it had opened up old closed cans of worms...of promises broken, of sacrifices forgotten, of a heart melted,of memories distorted...

I know of women who live in fear of dating again, i dint think i was until this incident. That all this time i was afraid, some of us have us have moved on with out dealing and healing the broken heart, but we constantly live in fear that one day that guy in our life will either cheat on us,lie to us or just leave us....when a guy even shows any of the sign associated with what joe did or say we automatically start judging and connecting dots,drawing conclusions...
We need to let go of what happened in the past inorder to live in the future, we need to let go of all the insecurities, we need to like who we are, we need to believe in ourselves and know that we are powerful beyond measure, we need a relationship with God, for only he knows us for he created us,we need to stop being the victims and be the victor!....we need to be forgiven inorder to forgive....we need to heal so as to love,

Imagine me,being free trusting you totally...finally i can imagine me.....
That evening as passi prayed all i could mumble beneath the tears flowing down my cheeks was Fix me Lord, fix this hurting heart,heal me and let me forgive.......

Wanjiku Ndungu